Simple

 

“Don’t want to mix up your words with mine

Wanna live to reflect your light

Give me you, give me truth

And the rest will fall in line

Don’t want my pride to get in the way

Of the love that you give away

Give me you, give me truth

That the cross can save us all”

 

These words from Jordan Feliz in his song Simple have stuck with me since I first heard them.  Particularly the line that states, “Don’t want to mix up your words with mine.”  But I’ll explain that later.

Lately I have been wrestling with whether or not I really have what it takes to be a part of the Elementary Education program here at Moody.

I feel as though God has given me a clear call to be a teacher.  Teaching is my passion, and I have no doubt that God has me on this earth to teach.  The joy that comes when a child grasps a math concept, can spell a word that they never thought they could, or when the light turns on in their mind and what they have been learning about clicks, makes my heart sing.  Education that is truly Christ centered has always been something I’ve thought about, but was never something that I actually saw as possible until I entered my Foundation in Education class here.  My struggle is not on whether or not I should be a teacher, rather it is whether I can be a teacher.  Can I make it among the elite students that are a part of the Elementary Education program at the Moody Bible Institute?

The main source of my questioning comes from the fact that I am not a good public speaker.  Just the thought of answering a question in a class makes me shake.  So then, what in the world makes me think that I’ll be able to make it in El. Ed?  Every single class I will have for El. Ed. Is focused on teaching and by extension, public speaking.  My doubts lead me to seek counsel from one of my professors, who I have met with a few times at this point.  He has been asking me to think through and really process different things, which has lead me to my line of thinking now.

I want to be a teacher, because I believe God wants me to be a teacher.

I’m never going to be able to be a teacher on my own strength or with my own words.

God is my comforter, my strength, and my Father.

Therefore, I have nothing to be anxious about or fear.

Which brings me to the song, Simple.

 

The chorus in particular, correlates with my most recent thoughts.

I don’t want my words to be what my future students will hear.

Christ is going to be at the center of my teaching and of my classroom, I want to reflect God’s love and truth to my future students.

My pride regarding my performance as a teacher and in myself is only going to get in the way.

The only way that I am going to be able to get to the point that I am a teacher, I need to rest in God and rely on His strength, not my own, to make it.

My relationship with God, my reliance on Him, and the power He gives me through the Holy Spirit are more important than my GPA and what my peers think about me.

“Don’t want to mix up your words with mine

Wanna live to reflect your light

Give me you, give me truth

And the rest will fall in line

Don’t want my pride to get in the way

Of the love that you give away

Give me you, give me truth

That the cross can save us all

It really is that simple. 🙂

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