In this season…

Tired. Worn out. Exhausted.  These words are redundant, but they perfectly describe how I’ve felt the last couple of weeks.  I feel like I have been running non stop since school started.  Class, work, PCM, Big Bro Big Sis, and homework have consumed my life.  I run from one thing to the next, and only stop once I’m too exhausted to continue.  Eating is something that I don’t have time for.  I don’t spend time with my friends.  Not that I really have any friends anymore, since I’m not rooming with Vanessa, I don’t see Molly and Autumn, and my two favorite people, Jess and Ashlyn, graduated. I never see Matthew, and when I do, it’s when we’re in the library and I’m concentrated on work.  I rarely see Darby and she’s my roommate! I feel like I’m drowning.  I’m not sleeping.  I finish with homework late at night and get up early so I can at least try and eat breakfast. (Otherwise, my first meal of the day is dinner).  I’m burning out fast.  Most of the time, all I want to do is just sleep and forget everything that I have to do.  I know that I’m whining and it could be a lot worse!  Through it all, I feel a peace knowing that God is holding me through it all.  On days filled with worries, running, and stress, I can close my eyes and almost hear that whisper in my ear saying that it’s okay, and this stress and worry will only be here for a season.  This is college life.  This is what life will be like from now on.  The countless hours working in the call center, the late nights spent studying, and the time spent in classes will not be here forever.  In three very short years I will no longer be an undergraduate student.  I’m so blessed to have my job in Distance Learning and to be a student at the Moody Bible Institute!  I may be tired and stressed, but all in all, I love the craziness of it all.

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