It’s been almost a month since I said goodbye to Jessica, Ashlyn, Darby, and all of the other girls on my floor for the summer (and in some cases, for good 😦 ) I have been living in Chicago this summer because I have an amazing job working for Moody Distance Learning. I have really enjoyed the experience so far, but it has been a difficult adjustment going from living around a whole group of amazing people, to living completely alone. I haven’t ever done anything quite like this before, and I’ll admit that the first couple of weeks were really difficult. I’m finally starting to adjust and am actually enjoying the time that I have here. I go to work, I get to hang out with my little sib, and get to hang out with my new Moody family. I may be spending a lot of time on my own, but I actually enjoy getting to walk to the beach and watch the waves. I love to sit in the nooks by ASC and watch thunderstorms while I read, I enjoy just sitting in the sun doing absolutely nothing, and I love getting to curl up in my bed watching Sherlock uninterrupted. Don’t get me wrong, I miss people and going to classes. I miss getting to talk to Darby and Ashlyn. I miss having someone to work out problems with. I miss having someone to go on Walmart or Aldi runs with. I miss my sassy, Mexican, roommate (love you Vanessa 😉 ). I’m slowly coming to terms with the fact that missing these things, and being sad about them, isn’t going to change anything. I’m going to be alone here until school starts again in the fall, so I might as well embrace it and enjoy it while I can. Missing normalcy isn’t going to bring it back. As of now, I don’t think that I’ll ever have a defined source of “normalcy” anytime in the near future. Even when I do go home it’s not “normal” anymore. What I’m living in, in the moment is my new “normal”.
Through this experience, I’m pressing into God harder than ever before. He is holding me and letting me know that while I may be lonely, I’m never alone. I am so grateful that God has given me this opportunity. I’m learning, I’m growing, and I’m starting to understand what it means to be an adult finally. This may be hard at times, but I love getting to call Chicago home. 🙂